As many of you already know, I am no longer working outside of the home (though I am working like a dog inside the home!) and I consider myself to be a recovering accountant. Those of you working out there in the wide world will, I think, understand why I feel it needs to be recovered from. The stress levels out there are immense, and some people are just not cut out for that kind of thing. I am definitely one of those people.
When I left the rat race back in August of 2013, I had a vague idea of the kind of job I would think of returning for. It would need to be local, it would need to be part time, it would need to be a step up professionally for me, and it would need to pay good money. If it was in the public sector, then even better. Imagine my shock, and delight, when just such a job appeared on one of my emails from one of the job sites I have been a member of in the past.
This meant I needed to decide what to do. Do I apply for the job and have a go, just for experience, even if nothing comes of it, or do I stay here in my little homemaker bubble and ignore it? As I am sure you can imagine, there was quite a bit of to-ing and fro-ing done. I asked for an application form to be delivered to me, and as I type this, it is sitting on the desk in front of me, taunting me slightly.
If it were just on the basis of whether I could do the job, then there would be no problem. I know I can do the role, and it would be a really good one into the bargain. But there is a bigger decision to be taken here. Do I want to radically change our life, again, just to get more money in the bank or to make our life “easier”?
The more I thought about it, the more I thought it wasn’t the right time or the right job. Sure, some extra money in the bank account would be great, especially with all the expenses of moving house, but lets look at that a bit close, just for a minute. If I went back to work, we would actually have more expenses that we do now… more petrol, more food costs, and when the adoption goes through, there is the adoption leave to think about and the cost of child care.
But more than just money. I needed to think about our life. I am able to cook from scratch every day, I am able to clean the house, keep on top of the chores, do the garden, write this blog, do my studying, all of this kind of thing. I would not be able to do that if I was at work. In fact, we would probably have to hire a cleaner and a gardener to help us keep on top of it all. More expense.
On the basis that some people are so poor they only have money, I have decided that the job is not for me, right now. Maybe in another 3 or 4 years when the baby or babies are at school. We shall see. But maybe not even then. And anyway, Viridian Herbalist might be off the ground and paying its way by then too!